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Jacki Lawless // Motherhood

Meet Jacki Lawless, a stay-at-home mom with 2 littles: Keagan Rowe, who just turned 2, and Hadley Jane, her almost 4-month-old baby girl.

Jacki explains a little about how she came into her role as a mother: "It’s funny, I never thought I’d be the housewife type. I never really respected “full-time moms” or appreciated what valuable work that it is. As I was finishing my masters degree, I got pregnant (surprise!) and everything changed. I couldn’t possibly imagine letting someone else spend their days with my son. I couldn’t bare the thought of leaving him and going back to work. Thankfully, God provided a way for me to stay home, and I’m so incredibly glad. This life isn’t for everyone, but it’s such a blessing for me and my family."

What does the role of "mother" mean to you? 

To me, a mother is someone who sacrificially and intentionally devotes their life to serving children. As a mom, it’s my responsibility to love my kids unconditionally, to extend grace to them on a daily (or sometimes hourly) basis, and to put their needs before my own. I’m not perfect, by any means, but I trust The Lord to use me as their guide and discipler, because he chose me to be their Mama, and that’s a huge honor. Sometimes raising littles can be stressful and thankless, but mostly it’s a blessing, and just plain fun! 

 What is the best advice you have ever received when it comes to motherhood?

I’m the kind of person that likes to have it all together. I can admit, I’m a perfectionist. But another mom once encouraged me to let go of the desire to have everything just right. Loving your kids well and making memories with them is way more important than finishing the laundry or having a clean kitchen. I’m learning to go easy on myself and just enjoy this precious season with Keagan and Haddie. It’s not easy, but I’m trying to be OK with the fact that I’m usually running late, I almost always have spit-up in my hair, and my car is full of lost socks and Puffs. Life is too sweet to stress about things like that, right?

 How do you like to spend days with your little ones?

Since Hadley joined the club a few months ago, we’re settling into a new routine over here. Keagan and I still enjoy our dance parties and long games of hide-n-seek, but he’s also learning to help Mama and take care of his baby sis. After the two of us share an early breakfast together, Haddie wakes up to nurse and hang out for a bit before her morning nap. Keagan loves to bring her toys and read her stories, he even helps get me diapers and clean clothes when it’s time to change her. I love how proud he is to be serving her. When she sleeps, we do puzzles and color pictures, play basketball or chase our dog, Sammy around the house. And when it’s time for Keagan to nap, I get to enjoy precious time with just Haddie, laying with her under the play gym or trying to make her giggle. On a rare and magical day, their nap times intersect and I’ll maybe get to eat with both hands or finish the never-ending pile of laundry… or maybe even just put my feet up for a minute. It’s glorious! 

What do you find most important in your role as a mother?

I’m learning more and more lately how important it is to take care of myself. I have to make it a priority to spend time with The Lord, studying his word and sharing my heart with him. Being a mom is such sanctifying work. Every day I see how I couldn’t possibly have enough patience or grace to serve my kids in my own strength, apart from God. It’s really humbling. I used to feel guilty about making time for myself or leaving the kids behind for a rare date night, but I’m learning to invest in myself and in my marriage, to make myself a better wife and mom with more to give my kids. I’m still pretty new at this whole mom thing, but God has taught me so much already and I’m thankful for every day I get to serve my sweet family. 


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